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Never Think

His eyes were half closed as he walked down the halfway, boots scuffing at the ground. The backpack on his back felt like it weighed a million pounds, and her photograph was all he was aware of in his pocket. His keys even felt foreign. He stared at the green door for what seemed like years. Even went so far to rest his forehead against it and stare at his uniform before twisting his key in the deadbolt.

Never think
What’s in your heart
What’s in our home
So I won’t

She was laying on his couch, his bed, in her favorite sweatshirt. She had been so proud when she had done enough to win it. There was the pride that she was deserving of him. No, it was the other way around and it struck him hard now, as he looked at her chest rising and falling, eyelashes fluttering and arms clutched around the small stuffed kitten he had bought her. Her auburn hair was a light, even through the morning storm.

You’ll learn to hate me
But still call me baby
Oh Love
So call me by my name

His smile could have lit up the whole world as he softly let his bag fall down in the foyer. He couldn’t keep his eyes off of this beautiful woman who occupied not only his apartment, but his mind and thoughts. He bowed his head to focus on getting out of his combat boots and snuck past her sleeping figure into the back room where he peeled out of his ACUs. Even here, she lingered in the small, tidy stacks of laundry.

And save your soul
save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
Before nothing can be done

He walked back in front of her and knelt beside her, feeling her breath wash over him in waves. His fingers reached out and were greeted with her silent warmth. His smile grew and he kissed her forehead long, and deeply, cherishing the feeling of her skin under his lips.

I’ll try to decide when
She’ll lie in the end
I ain’t got no fight in me
In this whole damn world
Telling you to hold off
She said hold on
It’s the one thing that I’ve known

His dog tags clinked and he broke the kiss to look at them and then her. The sun shone wisely through the window, turning it every shade of sunrise, and he smoothly pulled them over his head and placed them around her neck. For once he could swear that home was just a little more tangible and a tear entered his eye. Perhaps, because this was home to her, and it had become that way to him too. So he cried.

Once I put my coat on
And how I know it’s all wrong
She’s standing outside holding me
Saying oh please
I’m in love
I’m in love

Her blue grey eyes opened, and she reached out her fingers to brush against his forehead. A small smile wrinkled her features and calm rushed over her. The cool metal against her neck made her hold up his tags, and she pressed her fingers to her lips, eyes spilling so many secrets and tears that he pulled her close, wrapping her in his warm embrace on the living room floor.

Girl save your soul
Save your soul
Before you’re too far gone
And before nothing can be done

She clutched to him as he held her, her voices solitary whimpers filling the air just as much as his. She breathed in his scent and kissed all she could reach as fingers searched her hair for a lifeline. He swore she’d said I love you a million times before but there’s a difference when she said it like she did. Like she had gone a lifetime without water, and he was the only supply.

‘Cause without me
You got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Without me you got it all
So hold on
Hold on

He held her until she calmed. And when she curled into his side, he sat with his back to the couch, buried his face in her hair, and wondered what god he pleased so well that they let him have an angel.

Robert Pattinson – “Never Think”

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